After months of stay, finally, I got all those papers and ticket ready and my current plan is that I’m going to set out on the 11th of this November. The only problem for me now is that I still don’t get all the euros I need prepared. I’m going to bring 4,000€ with me, in cash. However, the bank with whom I made an appointment before only gave me half. I have to wait for their phone call, although I actually don’t have too much time.
I don’t know if I should say this… I’m a little superstitious and I always believe that if I post something publicly, that thing will be lead to a bad consequence. However, for now, I just can’t stop myself telling, for I really love her so much. At the end of this August, I met a girl, who now is my girlfriend. It’s inconvenient to post her real name here, but, I’d like to call her “Akane”, although she isn’t Japanese at all. She’s very cute and very smart. We live in different parts of China so it’s hard for us to see each other. From now on we’ve just met 3 times but we really had a sweet experience together.
It’s interesting that I still remember that in the last year when I left China to go to Spain, I felt nothing but excited. My thought at that time was “Yeah! Finally I can go to a place where I can feel free to use those apps and services like Twitter, Instagram…”. But now, the only emotion that is harbored in my heart is sadness and reluctance. I miss my sweetheart, I miss my family. I want to be with them, and I don’t want to go.
But I have to go.