Before I established the website, I even didn’t think about what should I do with this. As an ordinary individual, only if one of my work gets famous, or there would be nobody else here.
But maybe It’s good? I can’t say. On the one hand, I desire that there could be somebody with whom I could share my achievements. However, on the other hand, if here really comes someone, I usually drop myself into anxiety. For example, I once decided to join a Minecraft server. It’s really a good chance to have epic cooperation with others, to create some incredible buildings which are almost impossible for just one man. Nevertheless, when I actually got inside, I turned to isolate myself and found a land quite far away from the crowd to build my “colony” and live there, alone and silently. In that duration, once here came a guy and said that he would be willing to play with me. And not surprisingly, I refused him. What’s interesting is, just a month later, I forgot all my crowdfobia and actively went to ask if somebody could show me his/her land, although I got nobody to reply to me.
This kind of dilemma just keeps pressing me and makes me feel extremely tired and hopeless. Now here opens my website. Undoubtedly, it’s published and so anybody can see all my bullshit and complain. I post my words and pictures here: it may mean that I faintly want someone could come and read them. But at the same time, I can predict that if one day here really appears a visitor, I will drop in anxiety again.