The red dot is super comfortable than not only the iron sights but also the riflescope! Days ago I bought one with multi-reticles with 2 different colors, 4 features, and 5 brightness levels, when there was a high discount in the gunshop. I mounted it on my Gamo airgun, and that was great to aim and fire. The only pity is that my membership of shooting range has been due a long time ago so now I can’t go there to try and zero my red dot until I go to renew my card (actually my membership has been expired about one year ago so it was… you know, illegal for me to shoot at the shooting range before). I’m now planning to sell my old Norico airgun, for its bad rail system, and to buy a new Gamo one (maybe Gamo Magnum) for the 25m or 50m range shooting. However, before all, I have to handle my school work and the formalities for residence. Now I still got 5 pending working and… ok fuck the shooting things, I really must put all my attention and energy into those shitty works.
Maybe this year I couldn’t go back to my country, for I need the resource here to finish my master thesis and get a C1 certification in Spanish. So, in this case, I ate my words again, because before I promised my girlfriend that I would go back in July (and another “before” I promised her that I would go back in May). God knows how ashamed I am, but I have to stay here and carry on. This thing is not like the playing house or some romantic novel stories. It is about my future, seriously. Fortunately, my girlfriend showed me her support and sympathies. “Just go finishing your thesis and get your certification… So you could find a well-paid job and earn a lot of money and buy many things I want for me, right?” she said. Nevertheless, I don’t know why she looks impatient and exhausted these days, maybe because of her new job. I worry so much about her but I can do nothing but wait until she recovers again. I remember yesterday when we were talking by phone, she told me that now she didn’t want to have any kind of sex with me. She explained that the phone sex makes her uncomfortable for she cums more quickly than me thus she had to keep masturbating until I finished, which made her quite drained. However, the most important was that she declared that she even didn’t want to have real sex with me because, before, every time when we had sex, she just drowned in fear that she didn’t want any risk of pregnancy, although she indeed wanted to make love with me. For this, to be honest, I understand her, cus I also don’t want her to be hurt because of me. Actually, I’ve decided to have a vasoligation to make her relax and I’ve told her before, just… looks like she has already forgotten my words.
For I will stay here for another year, now I’ve scheduled a surgeon and a dentist to resolve my cyst and years of old dental caries. The dental treatment here is sooooooo fucking expensive but I have no choice cus… you know, the toothache KILLS, seriously. Otherwise, from May I felt stiff in my lumbar vertebra and uncomfortable in my lumbar and lower limbs. That really made me panic so I had an MRI exam and went to see 2 doctors from 2 different hospitals but found nothing but a lipoma which was not affected at all. The first doc recommended me the rheumatologist and the second said to me that maybe I could schedule a neurosurgeon to remove the lipoma to see if the symptom would decrease. My mum, who is also a doctor, said to me that everything was just some kind of anxiety disorder brought by pressure and depression, and wanted me to be calm. I don’t know, and now, I don’t care. I know those rare diseases, like ALS or AS. All of them are no cure so there is not necessary to be worried. Tantum carpe diem.